Small Talk #11 (March 2004)
A MESSAGE FROM JACQUELYN SMALL, Founding Director of Eupsychia Institute:

TRUE SERVICE


"True service is the spontaneous outflow of a loving heart and an intelligent mind; it is the result of being in the right place and staying there; it is produced by the inevitable inflow of spiritual force and not by strenuous physical plane activity; it is the effect of a person's being what he or she truly is, a divine Son or Daughter of God, and not by the studied effect of one's words or deeds."
– The Tibetan Master Djwhal Khul


Many today are feeling the call to true Service. Studying the above quote will help us all remember what true Service is. We feel it as a deep yearning that pulls us toward the realization of our true expression – which will always manifest as the giving of one’s spiritual talents to the world.

I was "called" when I was twenty-nine, during a stay in the hospital where I’d undergone a clinical near-death experience which culminated in a mystical awakening that changed my life. I didn’t answer the Call until eleven years later, because I didn’t understand. So for eleven years, I was "cleaning house" but didn’t know it – getting my children raised, learning about right relationship, ending those that didn’t work, accepting those that did, taking the risk to step out of the safe government work I was doing that paid the bills every month.

Now, after all these years of following the inner guidance I’ve finally learned to respect and trust, I’m quite familiar this incredible law of Service, an archetype that makes contact with us when we’re ready to step out. Perhaps some of what I say here will remind you of where you are on your journey back to your true Self -- the journey "Home."

True service can only come about when our hearts are clear of obsessive focus on our own personal needs, and when our minds have gotten bored with judging others (and ourselves) as right and wrong. Before we are clear enough to at least know there is a bigger picture and feel somewhat connected to a larger Plan, we are not given a great responsibility by the Powers that oversee this world. To enter into true Service, we are to become an individuated soul – one who listens to guidance from within, no longer needing the stamp of society for one’s identity; we learn that we can stand alone, with a loving heart and an intelligent mind.

Our personal life and salvation are worked out individually step by step, on our own steam, in our own timing, until we reach a certain attainment of balance and compassion. Then, our personal life no longer belongs just to us; we start being guided by "our lineage" residing within the subjective realities, who speak to us and inspire us through the mind. These Beings are disembodied, and can only come down into manifestation as low as the mental plane. They do not incarnate emotionally or physically. Those parts are the human side of this co-creation equation.

These guides are a culmination of all the teachers and mentors you’ve worked with as a soul throughout your entire lifestream. Connection with them has brought you talents and intense interest in certain aspects of life. For me, my lineage has been from the areas of spiritual psychology and music. Roberto Assagioli, Carl Jung, Sri Aurobindo, Abraham Maslow, and the Tibetan Master D. K. are whom I hear from the most. Plato and Pythagoras and the great Master Jesus are in there as well, though so high, I can barely touch their Presence.

You will recognize your lineage by the great philosophers, authors or artists you’ve so admired and perhaps even studied. And some, you may not quite recognize, but you’ll know an inner familiarity with their vibration that tells you that you know each other well. My question to you is this: Have you heard and formed a relationship with an inner Guide? This inspiration or guidance has been with you for a long, long time. So think back through your life and you may find someone there in your subjective reality you’ve always seen in your mind’s eye. These inner Beings are mediators for us, to make sure that alignment can happen. They reach us when our hearts and minds are open. A loving heart is one that is filled with compassion for others and for the world, as well as for oneself. An intelligent mind is one that will think only what is good for the whole. Intelligence is naturally creative when our minds are aligned with the will of God.

Our hearts do not fill with compassion, however, until we forgive ourselves and learn to fully accept our dark side along with our light. This means we have much healing work to do -- a return to our past to re-collect all our injured selves through the eyes of a broader understanding. As we allow our consciousness to return to the past, we use a spiritual skill we all possess called "double vision." We remain aware of our divinity while simultaneously traveling back into our biographical past. With "double vision," we can see beyond the personalistic into the bigger picture where the meaning and sacred purpose of each situation we’ve experienced stands revealed. This is a state of transcendence. In our work with hundreds of souls through these past 28 years, we’ve seen much healing occur in this transcendent way of re-visiting one’s past. And it works rapidly when a person commits to this kind of deep inner work.

Transcendence is a "rising above" in order to see Reality with a capital "R." It can only happen when we resolve any opposition, any duality or judgment we’ve been caught up in. We can never transcend anything we've not integrated and forgiven, for it would still be trapped in the duality of right/wrong, forgiven/unforgiven. For example, as long as I feel I am a victim and still unforgiving toward a perpetrator, there can be no transcendence. I have to get to that sacred space of seeing us both as having been bound up in something awful that needed to be redeemed. By my re-experiencing it through the light of conscious awareness, I can see the perpetrator’s fear and wounding as well as my own. So I am able to forgive. In double vision, the two become one thing -- two sides of something we were to learn about. "The dark, the light, no difference."

Attempting to rise above something we've not integrated puts us in a "by-pass" and takes us off our road. This kind of living carries us into a "bogus spirituality," where we believe we are behaving as one who is spiritual, while the ego still has dominance over our ways of being, which everyone but us can see. Our psyche will be lopsided, trying to ignore some denied or unloved part of ourselves, or our lives. This imbalances the psyche, which is our humanized soul.

The soul will always strive for wholeness, or completion, and when experiencing an imbalance, will set off a law of the psyche called enantiodromia: the pendulum of experiencing will swing to its very opposite, to the "unspiritual" part that's been denied, all at once. And a great humiliation or sometimes even a grave disaster will occur to force us to look at the part we’ve denied, so we can know it. We will have to swim for awhile in the very thing that we despised or feared the most. This is the TV evangelist screaming about the sins of the flesh who gets caught in the arms of a prostitute. This is the woman who hates gays who discovers her own daughter is gay. This is our Master's loving way of teaching us to accept it all, teaching us how to be whole. For to learn it, we must "take it on", include it as part of the Self.

The word ‘individual’ means undivided. When you or I become an individual, we are no longer divided against ourselves in unrelated and unintegrated ego fragments. It means we’ve reclaimed the lost parts of our ego that got damaged or never developed along the way. We’ve owned them and honored them for the gift they gave us when we needed their defense. Now, we step out of all that and into the identity we came here to be – uncontaminated by the past. Just here. And living in the now.

It is the souls who individuate who carry forward the workings of evolution. For, the others are stuck in the mass consciousness that says, "Do not risk, do not think for yourself, just do as you are told and you’ll be safe; you’ll even be saved." Well, how, then could we ever create a new reality or move beyond the stagnant ways of our man-made inventions? You can see how impossible it would be to ever grow. So, obviously, Jesus knew what he was doing when he welcomed home the prodigal son. And the Buddha was enlightened when he realized that the key to all our suffering comes from the one simple word: attachment. When we cannot let go and move toward change, never believing in ourselves, and can only listen to others, we are lost. We are mere puppets on God’s strings of disappointment in His creation.

True spiritual Service is the shift to the inner life, to listening to the Voice within -- rather than any outer domination. The "inevitable inflow of spiritual force is coming from inside of you; you are now to be just who you are, and serve right where you stand in any way or for anyone who comes upon your path. Service has nothing to do with roles, definitions, or particular jobs to do; service is the art of being yourself, a grown-up son or daughter of God, with a co-creative nature and a grave responsibility. And modeling this authenticity for the world.

Just being ourselves, however, is perhaps the hardest thing we ever do, because we must step out of our past programming that we’ve allowed to define us, that demanded we fit into the mold. And so, we do not become true Servers overnight; there is a process we all must undergo, like priceless pearls being washed clean from the mud. Here is a reminder of the good news, which comes from one of the gospels of which we were never told, the gospel of Philip:

"When the pearl is thrown into the mud, it does not become therefore devalued, nor does it become more valuable if it is anointed with balsam. Rather, it possesses the same value in the esteem of its owner. It is the same with the children of God wherever they may find themselves, for their value is known by their Father."
(Logion 48)

Our promise is that the essential dignity of the human soul is never denigrated nor forgotten by our divine Parents. As Jungian scholar Stephan A. Hoeller, in Jung and the Lost Gospels, reminds us: "The essence of the human being is not merely created by God but is God, not in the exclusive but in the inclusive sense inasmuch as it is part and parcel of Divinity." Our psyches may be subject to the muddy unconsciousness of our human conditions, but our very nature entitles us to the highest respect.

So join us anytime you can and discover members of your soul family you've always known, waiting to greet you and support your next right step in coming whole! if you've read this far, your new life is already beginning.


Be conscious out there! In loving service,
Jacquelyn Small

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